Now Entering....???

The drive from Austin to Houston for the very last time was not very easy. I really miss Austin and my friends so much already. It hasn't fully hit me yet that Austin is no longer my home and college is truly over. A week later and here's how I feel:

I feel like I missed the sign that said " Now entering... Adulthood". I'm sorry did I pass it up? Can we drive back and stay in my childhood just a little bit longer? How come we didn't get a warning or a "sign"? I would've appreciated a signal notifying the end of my childhood. In a blink of an eye, here we are- adults, no longer starry-eyed kids with big dreams and full faith. Instead some of us are teachers, spouses, parents even. Growing up, I thought our careers, marriage and parenthood were sooooooo far away- for old people and we would have such a long time before any of us reached it. Nope. Definitely, not.

I'm in between two worlds; one where I'm clinging onto my youth hoping it never flees- where I am able to forever hold onto memories of eating Wendy's in the PCL at midnight or having a night out on Dirty Sixth. Or where I'm lying on the South lawn reading some book and sipping on Starbucks. Or where I'm in some ridiculously long line to grab some swag and, of course, the free t-shirt of some unknown organization. The other, where I'm letting go of all things college behind and moving forward. Literally and figuratively, throwing out things I don't need and beginning a new chapter. Looking at starting my career and dumping friends who aren't moving forward with me.

Yes, I admit it I am the master of dropping friends. I've learned a few things about friendship in college. I am quick to end friendships when I feel like it is no longer a mutually beneficial relationship. I will admit I'm disappointed in how many of my friendships have turned out. But this is life. Friends come and go. Those who matter will stick around. All I ask of my friends are: respect, honesty and a little effort. Time and distance are nothing. Friendships that are built to last will overcome these things and if they don't you're better off anyways. 

I've just been keeping busy. Being in the "real world" is not quite as fun as I'd hope. My money no longer goes to fun splurges or anything that is not a necessity. Shopping is no longer enjoyable because all I buy are work-related things. Hopefully, once I start full-time I can travel again. I've been itching to travel and it's been killing me that I've been so stationary this past year.

I hope week two goes by much smoother and I regain a little spirit and motivation.
xoxo, Sandra